January 16, 2017

This week has been something new, of course this is the way it is at the begining of every transfer, getting used to a new companion, new tallents and new abilities, new challenges, new strengths, new hopes, new plans, new expectations, and new miracles. I think that change is kind of hard for me, I was really sad when Elder Geier left. He's been a really influential person for me my entire mission. Also, the sister missionaries from my MTC Group are officially gone and at home. That means that only the Elders from my group are still here, and that means, according to the mission culture, that I am officially "old". I cannot believe how fast time flies, I saw missionaries not to long ago giving their departing testimonies, and before I know it I'll be standing up there at some zone training giving my departing testimony to these wonderful Elders and Sisters, undoubtedly the most intensely powerful group of missionaries I could ever serve around. This week I talked to President Pohořelický about how I was feeling as a missionary, I told him about my concerns about how I was uncertain about the future and about how I was not sure what the Lord wants me to do for the rest of my mission. I expressed the feelings that I had always had goals in my life that lead me to be good, and to more forward in the strength of the Lord, but as I progressively accomplished these goals, I had less and less of them to do. I had a goal to become a teacher when I was a decon, I had a goal to become a priest, to become an Elder, to obtain the Melchizedek Priesthood, to go to the Temple, to Go on a Missoin... of course there is still to be sealed in the Temple, and to have a family. But these were goals that lead to my greatest goal, to return to Heavenly Father with my Family forever. Now that I am on my mission, most of those goals are complete, but I found myself beginning to worry because I was not sure where my life was going to lead me after all of these essential things are done. Presidente brought to my attention an important detail... I will be sealed in the temple before I'm 25 probably... then what... I thought about that... I would have no goals like that to work towards after 25... I would have to live from 25 to, I dunno, 95 years old without a vision of what I would do or be working towards other than the goal to die clean and worthy... I have since thought about my life after the mission, not to get distracted from my missionary work, but instead to confirm to myself, why I am serving as a missionary. I would encourage everyone to think about their life as well. Have you achieved your life goals? Have your goals changed with time? Are you working towards something now? I love you all, and I will have more info on things that are happening here with Investigators and stuff next week. Love you all, S láskou, Starší Dean